祂還沒有雕完

我想先說我自己。Let me start with myself.

我常以為，要等我夠成熟、夠穩了，神在我身上的工作才算數。I used to think God's work in me only counts once I'm mature enough, settled enough.

這支影片，是一位把我收作女兒的長者，回頭看這些年，說她在哪裡最清楚看見主。This video is an older saint who took me in as a daughter, looking back over these years and telling where she most clearly sees the Lord.

她先講那幾條狗。She starts with the dogs.

她說，Bruce 回天家以後，那幾條狗陪了她大約三年，是又會愛人、又忠心的伴。She says that after Bruce went home, the dogs kept her company for about three years—loving, faithful companions.

她把這個也算作恩典。連幾條狗，她都看見是主在滿足一個需要。She counts even this as grace. Even the dogs, she sees as the Lord meeting a need.

她笑著提起，有一次我把 Bruce 連贏了十五次，他可不太開心。She laughs, remembering the time I beat Bruce fifteen times at a game—he was not too happy about it.

她說：「家裡就是會這樣，對吧？」She says, "That happens in families, right?"

被一個家收進去，連輸贏鬥嘴都算數——我得學著受得起這份恩典。To be taken into a family, where even the teasing counts—I am learning to receive that grace.

然後她轉向我的生命，她的話我想原原本本留著：Then she turns to my life, and I want to keep her words just as she said them:

「神一直在塑造她，從一開始到今天，還在繼續。神供應她的需要、給她智慧、引導她、幫她走過與人的關係、給她分辨人的眼光。」"God is shaping her and God has shaped her... God has met her need. God has given her wisdom. God has led her. God has helped her work through interpersonal relationships. God has given her discernment with people."

我把這段讀了好幾遍。最讓我停下來的，是「還在繼續」這幾個字。I read that several times. The words that stop me are "and it continues."

她接著說，她也不知道前面是什麼。She goes on: she doesn't know what's ahead either.

她說：「直到祂叫 Eliza 回家，或她有一天身體再也動不了，每一天、每一刻，她都向主敞開、可被祂使用。」She says: "Until He calls Eliza home, or she can't function physically anymore, every day, every moment, she's available to the Lord to be used."

然後是我最被摸著的一句：And then the line that touches me most:

「祂還沒有把 Eliza 雕完，就像祂也還沒有把我們雕完一樣。」"He's not finished shaping Eliza, any more than He's finished shaping us."

原來這塊心田，主一直在翻土，翻我的，也翻她的。So this heart-field—the Lord keeps tilling it, mine and hers alike.

她說的是「我們」——她和我，一起都還在被塑造。She says "us"—she and I, both still being shaped.

這就是 me 到 us 到 WE：主一邊塑造我們，一邊就把我們放在彼此身邊，一起長大。This is me to us to WE: the Lord shapes us as He goes, setting us beside one another to grow up together.

她最後說，為我禱告、支持神在我身上的呼召，是她的喜樂，也是她的權利。At the last she says that to pray for me and to support God's call on me is her joy and her privilege.

我能回的，只有謝謝。也願有一天輪到我，這樣看著下一個人說：祂還沒有把你雕完。What I can give back is thank you. And I pray that one day it is my turn to look at the next person and say: He is not finished with you yet.